'no one is available right now'

i didn't want to talk to you anyway.
i do not want any more bad news on test results, please.
enough is enough.
already now.

'no one is available right now'
well, apparently it all has to wait until tomorrow.
soon enough.
i say.

ich vermisse

nicht, das was ist, sondern das was sein könnte.* was aber nicht ist.

...könnte sein.

*weiser satz von T.b, zum mal drüber nachdenken

i take what i can get

and if i can't have forever then i take one night, a day, a couple of nights, a few hours, every time, whenever we meet. anytime again.

my choice. my decision.

the s*x was better w/ u, d.

in fact it was

great
easy
uncomplicated
passionate
everything sex can be

now playing: 'the music sounds better with you...'

into the great wide open

and off she went: übers große wasser, dem sonnenuntergang entgegen.

i miss u

and we just talked yesterday evening on the phone. for quite some time. but it is not enough. the txt messages are not enough either. and u r only on vacation now. and i might, most probably, even meet up with u before i will fly off on vacation.
which is great.
and unexpected.

i miss u.
which is unexpected, too.

and - even though not unexpectedly but still at sudden - plan F is now going to be implemented...the future is...whatever it will be. for u. as well as for us, if an us even exists...we'll see about that...

and in the meantime i will just enjoy the time we have and share. now. here. = reminder to myself

i miss u.

i am surprised.

...and isn't it very well that i am good at dealing with the unexpected?

off red adventrice singing "...the future is wide open..."

plan F

sauber raus

(schon mal vorab notiert, falls ich den auch mal brauche; eine lösung in reserve ist immer gut)