there is

no must whatsoever! it just does not exist. do what you want. and as you please.

an open heart

hurting, raw, but at least pulsating and alive.

stop functioning

so well for everybody but yourself. take care of your own needs first. it's your life your living.

i am tired

of being afraid. i want to stop being afraid and scared. and i am so scared to stop.

i am scared (II)

that the future will be grey and dull instead of bright and light.

i am scared (I)

of the consequences i may have to face and i may have to take.

looking out for a future

i am currently not sure it exists.

batteries empty

gone for a recharge.